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Take the teacher, not the course

10 Feb

I wrote this before the term started:

One of the biggest reasons that I hate splitting a series of coursework is that you’re fighting at least three things: time, methodology, and instructor. Taking a year gap in my 130 coursework was not the plan, especially since it means picking up with a different instructor (not bad, just different–different generation => different tactics) but it is what it is. The good: all the instructors (former and current) know who I am and I’ve been keeping in touch which means I’m not in a vacuum–if I need help I’ll have it. The bad: I’m picking this up in the second half of the series which means I’m expected to know the material from the first half (information that everybody else in the class has freshly imprinted on their minds.) The ugly: Changing instructors means changing texts… My old text did things in a “reverse” order from the common presentation. Specifically, we jumped right into epsilon delta proofs and continuity arguments whereas almost everybody else and their mother starts with sequences and series, compactness, and subsequential limit points.

It’s going to be an adjustment and I will have my difficulties fighting this material. But call me an optimist–I think I can do this.

I was an idiot, and I was ignoring so many signs. Including the ones I couldn’t have foreseen.  Continue reading


Me and the terrible, horrible, no-good, very bad day.

30 Nov

Does anybody remember that book? It was one of my favorites as a kid. Anyway. Rain. So, so much rain. And weather. So, so sick right now. Spent most of last night dry heaving, so not going to posting much.  Also, I just found out that grandma died last night (sad, but it was a long time coming so I’m okay.) Nonetheless, it means mom  has to be in Red Bluff ’til Sunday so I get to self-soothe. Ugh. Night folks.

Trippin’ up turkey!

22 Nov

Navigating the holidays is typically a complicated process. With vertigo, that process is relegated to a fine art. Distracting colors, excessive noise, rapidly-moving critters (e.g. pets, children) are all triggers for dizziness, and they form the very core of the fabric that is thanksgivachristmahanakwanzakeanewyears. That is what I call this period after Halloween and before Boxing day. It is madness, wrapped up in a ball of crazy and I have the delightful pleasure of putting my own unique spin on it all.

At the moment, I am very full, so I will edit the rest of this post later. Right now, I really need to sleep. To be continued… Continue reading

MAYDAY! In November.

17 Nov

Ho-leee crap, folks. Today? Today SUCKED. I mean, I usually have all manner of disturbances with storm systems, but it’s been a long time since I’ve had this sort of response. It’s rainy and windy like a proper winter rain cell right now–one of the first decent ones we’ve had all season since last year and…

I woke up, and I didn’t realize I had. Continue reading

I only run when chased.

14 Nov

When I begrudgingly decided (read: biologically forced) to take this semester off in February/March 2012, something inside me broke. Academia was (and in a sense is) my life. Everything was so cleanly laid out before the vertigo–I had a graduation map (actually I had several,) an idea of where I wanted to go with my education, what I needed to do to get there and when. When all of that changes… well what the hell do you do? Continue reading